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Saturday, April 3, 2010

Age

Curley was downright mean to me last night. She said, "You're almost 40." I couldn't believe she had the nerve to point that out. I told her i was taking my toys and going home. I told her she might as well tell me I have ugly shoes and my butt looks big in these pants! Almost 40 years old! That cheeky girl. I'm only 38!

Okay, no I'm not really mad at her, I swear. And I guess, I know, that 38 is closer to 40 than what I would like to admit. Ewww!

I've been thinking a lot about age lately, maybe because Mac is going to be 17 in nine days or because there's a man I have an interest in (more about him later!) who's a bit older than I am. Or because I'm almost 40 and this isn't where I wanted to be in my life. It could be any of these things, I suppose, that makes me think of age of late.

Age is interesting, with the limits it sets. For example, Mac wanted to go to Vegas for this 18th birthday because he thought he was going to be old enough to gamble. The legal gambling age in Vegas is 21. He can buy a lottery ticket in the state where were live at age 18 but no gambling in Vegas. He kept banging on about how he would be old enough at age 18 to vote and to be drafted but he couldn't drink or gamble, none of the fun stuff. I reminded him he had a whole year to wait before doing any of those milestone things.

I also think adding to the age thinking thoughts is because Mac is looking at colleges. My baby is looking at universities! How did that happen!?!

I have to keep reminding myself that age is a state of mind- how old do you want me to be? How old do I feel? Sometimes I feel like I'm 17, other times 25 and other times... 101.

One of my favorite movies of all time, When Harry Met Sally, has Sally in tears talking about getting married and kids and time running out. She says to Harry, "And I'm going to be 40." He says, "When?" Sally: "Someday!" He then goes on to point out she'll be 40 in eight years. I used to think that scene was hilarious! I also used to remember when I was 32 and could say that! For some reason, now it doesn't seem nearly as hysterically funny as it used to...

One upside to my age is that asshat fucktard Sperm Donor turned 48 yesterday. He will always be older than me and if his health stays the way it is- poor- and mine the way it is- good, except for the teeth- he'll die before me.

But really! I have my best friend point out that I'm almost 40! I thought I should start counting backwards on my next birthday; I say that all the time, though and for some reason no one else ever seems to remember I'm taking younger birthdays, rather than older ones.

However, this is a week to feel young no matter what. It's spring break! I don't have to go to school. There is something about being on spring break, specifically, that makes me feel young. No trips are planned for me or anything that would involve Florida and beaches, but the idea that I, like most kids (and other teachers) in America, have a whole week off, is awesome. This is a week to feel young!

Even if Curley thinks I'm going to be 40... soon...
Maggie Mae

7 comments:

sam said...

Hi Maggie Mae,

It is sad that no trips are planned for Florida this week. Try for the summer. Seriously. We can hit both coasts. And the springs.

Hope you and Mac are once again healthy!

P

Jimmie Earl said...

If you are gaining on 40, think about how it must feel to be rapidly approaching 65. UGH! How awful, the cheekiness of Curley! LOL! Did you say something to really piss her off! HA! Not really, I'm sure she didn't mean to hurt your feelings at all.
Enjoy Spring break. Even if it doesn't involve a trip to a beach in Florida.
JE

Curley said...

Sorry about pointing out your age, and thanks very much for not pointing out in print that I will be 53 in just 20 days. We will have to do something hilarious. Besides age is just a number. I say as I hobble away with my cane.

Maggie said...

sam/P- I swear i almost called you and if you said yes, then I was just going to load Mac, me and our stuff in the car and go. I have enough money to get there and back and not much more, Summer for sure!

Curley- she was just being a meanie face! ;)

Curley- we WILL do something, I promise. I might get you a wheelchair for your birthday! ;)

Cheryl said...

Age! sigh....

I've adopted the policy of not talking about my age anymore. Denial is good.

Think of it this way, though - if you live to be over a hundred you're still a kid. And in hobbit years you're still a kid.

And at least you already have a child. I on the other hand...

Lisa said...

Hey you are as old as you feel. I am 41 and really feel NO different than I have for the last 10 years. So don't worry about 40 it's a number and things get better even if you are still trying to get to where you want to be. I am going to stay where I am because I'm too old to go where I wanted to be! hehe And if you still have toys you are ok!!
Hugs, Lisa

Tiffanee said...

I agree with the previous comment!! I just turned 41 also and I do not feel any different. It is funny how at some point in our lives age stops mattering. It doesn't matter that my best friend is 8 years younger than me. When we were kids it was a huge deal!! I loved the post though you made me laugh. Enjoy your week. Relaxation always makes us feel younger. You are just a young thing anyway.