Saturday, November 13, 2010

Days of truth- Day 10

The 30 days of truth continues with "Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know", which is day number 10. (Yes, I plan to finish this someday... maybe)

This is a really diverse question I think. Someone I need to let go isn't necessarily someone I wish I never knew. I wish I never knew SD but I sure have let him go.

The answer is that I probably should've let AlaskaSam go along time ago. For those of you who know me well, know the history I have with that man. Those who read my previous blog, with the past moniker, know the sad, sordid, saga. Those who don't know.... well...

I was married and in college and AlaskaSam and I met and fell in love. Then I got divorced but he was in engaged. He dumped his fiance and I was living with someone. We are the royalty of bad timing. He gave me an ultimatum: move to Alaska or lose me forever. I didn't go. A year later I was ready and he was engaged and said to never call him again. Ten years later, we end up in contact; he's married and I'm single. We meet again, he decides to get a divorce but then doesn't and now we are friends.

I can't explain our connection but he is the only man I've ever loved, and probably will be the only one I ever will. We have a sense of telepathy that's crazy. We are true soul mates who could never get our acts together.

There's obviously more to this story than I could ever tell in one blog post or hundreds. But I love him and miss him every day.

Could be why I can't let him go. And never will.

Maggie Mae O'Sullivan


Jimmie Earl said...

I understand. I really do. To love and have lost is a terrible thing. In your case even worse than mine. I knew your mother loved me until she took her last breath. And maybe she still does. But, on the other hand (your other right) letting go is necessary to getting on with your life. It's time! You'll be happier in the long run. Enough of my philosophy.

Maggie said...

JE- it's easy to say to let go, but even after the 10 years of no contact with the man, I loved him all that time. I've tried to let go, but alas... can't do it.