How I screwed up weight loss

So................ the weight loss has decreased and it's my fault. It's not the fault for the reason you might think. I have not cheated at all in the last three weeks. I haven't cheated on single bit. I haven't eaten anything bad for me and I've limited my grains and pasta to those found inside a Lean Cuisine Box. I have behaved. So, what the heck is going on, you might be wondering?

Well, first of all... please no "I told you so" because I just don't think I could handle it.

I screwed up. Here's how. Week one, I struggled and hovered my calories around 1100 per day. My goal was to be around 1000 but it was all new and I just had a hard time, which is to be expected when changing an eating lifestyle. But I still managed to lose 7.5 pounds the first week which I considered to be a huge success.

I felt my will power kick in the second week and I worked harder and felt good. The "always starving" feeling was beginning to dissipate. So, I thought since the shakes have so many good vitamins and nutrients and protein, I could cut down on my calorie intake. So I did. I didn't tell anyone either; I just did it. During the second week I went down to around 800 calories per day and that included my 2 shakes. That week I only lost 2.5 pounds. Sure not what I thought by cutting down more calories but I thought my body was making an adjustment.

Third week my will power kicked in to high gear and to be honest... well, I went to about 500-600 calories a day, including my shakes. I only lost a half a pound and Monday I was devastated because I never cheated, I exercised, and my calories were down. What the hell was wrong??

Well, a fat girl's body can actually go into starvation. Whodda thought? I seriously thought because I'm bigger that there's no way I could go into starvation mode. Everyone says "oh it won't hurt you to miss a meal" and stuff like that to fat people, but that's not true.

This explains why the fat guy on Lost never got skinnier.

Anyway, after talking to a nutritionist and reading the Body by Vi info and doing some research and talking to the nurse at school, it was true that my body thought I was trapped in the desert and didn't know if it would eat again so it hung on the my fat. Gross but true.

So, I'm supposed to have 900-1100 calories a day in FOOD in addition to my shakes.

I'm still eating healthy with salads and chicken and Lean Cuisine. I'm eating fruits and lots of veggies. I count calories and measure everything.

I'm still in awe that a fat girl's body can go into starvation. And I'm embarrassed that I did that.

So this week is better. It's hard to eat more because my brain is saying "fat!" but I know I have to because obviously the other way didn't work. Everyone says I look thinner already and some of my clothes do fit better even if the scale isn't showing it. Yay.

I hope that next Monday I can report better weight loss results. I want the SCALE to tell me I'm thinner!

Mags